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Posted by mansoor on 18 Jan 2007 | Tagged as: heart 2 heart, wednesday wanderings
Note: the following commentary leads to dark and mysterious reccesses of my mind, and may lead to depression or all out hatred for me as a person. Read at your own risk, i will not be responsible for any consequences made by anyone else other than myself.
For the last couple of days (weeks?) i’ve not been in the mood to write alot. To the point that even my poor blog was being neglected!! (now now! do not despair dear blog! u are very near n dear to my heart!)
What brought this on, you ask?
Darn if i know. All i do know is, the ‘rock n roll’ has been slowly taken out from life.. to be replaced with a dull, senseless humming sound.. the incessant humming which is slowly but surely driving me mad. I’ve started becoming mad a lot too. Go off at the slightest provocation.. Yesterday was about to tear off a co-workers head just cuz he said ‘jaanay kay lye ready hojaao’. I’m writing this because i still have enough senses not to carry out the weird ideas in my head (like bashing the guys’ head in with a sledgehammer!), but i dont know till when…
A couple weeks back, i was soaring through the air, as happy as anyone could ever imagine being. I was thankful for all that i had, thankful even for pain, for it made me feel alive… now, nothings changed, yet i’ve somehow lost the longing for happiness even. Im going through the motions of life, making sure that i dont starve to death or dont stay off work too late, fulfilling social obligations as little as i can. Most of the time, i prefer staying alone, locked up in my room, watching TV or a movie.. I’m starting to abhor physical contact with people, slowly and gradually cutting off all ties with friends and family.. apart from those i absolutely necessarily have to keep.
Damn! i need to get shock therapy! I wonder how much good does 220 volts would do?
*eyeing up an open electric socket*
ohh…so u get em too eh?
(we girls got pms to blame anytime…wonder what sets u guys off!)
like is a series of ups n downs buddy! havent u been reading all that in my blog? look at me….was also floating a few weeks ago - now im snapping at ppl and cringing at every remark made. i have to keep reminding myself that if this is the bad phase - the good will follow - so loof forward to that! life after all is full of surprises!
now cheer up - go grab the mag or something
Beta-chocolate is the answer for you.I’m telling you!
ha it happens! i guess there r no perpetually happy or sad states. Us women, we blame it on our hormones. i dunnow any rational explainations for men’s mood swings, except that it happens to all of us. i hate myself during those moods as i am too too irritable and ready to bite off every one’s head. but a bar of choclates just make it all go away for a while…:)
lol @ all the pms comments. tis soo tru! chin up boi…the period will pass..once ur mensish cycle *thinks of a witty word..tis not coming tho* balances out. mite i add that i constsantly fantasize abt bashing certain pplz brains out quite a bit..tis normal man! hope ur bleurggh period passes as painlessly as possible *giggles*.
Seriously speaking…I think you need just a little association with religion…hook up some extra dates with Allah…It is only HE who brings the Mental and Emotional Relaxation in life….Give it a shot…
mm… there are just a bit too many pms related comments here :S so i’ll just pass up any answers to them…. only to say.. im starting to feel real sympathy for all womenfolk :p
utp: hhhmmmm……
did u try the 220V wali shock therapy? did it work? batadena yaar plz i need to one get myself. i m soooooooooooooo damn pissed off at ppl right now n to think the mood swung from happy to mad in just a matter of seconds
wanna have some kit-kat?
‘im starting to feel real sympathy for all womenfolk’~ yaayyyy! applaud him girlies!