Shattered Dreams
Posted by mansoor on 08 Apr 2008 | Tagged as: lifes anomaly's
Her words created a rift, realized the ultimate dread within me and caused me to react uncontrolably with not just anger, but with white, searing, blinding rage. It was the ultimate unforgivable sin, those words. Yet they were said with such callousness as if reading out a label from a milk carton without remorse and without the understanding of the damage they caused.
They were then termed an ‘unfortunate selection’ only to be used a little later with the same malice and intent as I originally percieved. The target was different, so the damage was minimal… yet it brought back memories of the rage.
Today, there’s a blackout. A void powerful enough to suck any and everything within its reach. Even love, or whatever was left of it, is not safe. Neither are the scattered pieces of the once perfect life and the perfect dreams we shared.
The story has taken on an unwanted twist. While barreling onwards at a 100+ kmph, it now faces the treacherous twists and turns of a winding mountain road on a foggy night.
The last bonds are being severed, the union terminated. The unwanted call has come through… The dreaded outcome is being realized.
The void is growing larger, darker and even more powerful.
Its threatning to eat up the threads through which we weaved our future, one by one, unraveling the complex,intricate knots.
In retrospect, I have come firmly to believe what I already suspected a long time ago. I am not allowed to feel, for to feel and to express those feelings form the basis of the ultimate sin in the eyes of the beloved, throwing you down from the alter you once stood on, to the depths of the dust beneath their feet.
Kya hogaya…everythin’ alright? Is this fiction or what?? ‘am unable to figure out
I don’t know what to say here. And you’re sure it’s over and you both can’t talk about what happened? I know its not easy…but a relationship once formed is worth trying to save, nahin? if nothing can be done, then just be thankful you guys realized it now when , seriously..if you look at it, it’s not too late to turn back.
Sorry..just thought I’d say s’thing.
sk: communication is what broke down.. and trust me, it was worth saving, only the sentiment wasn’t echoed! on my part, i said something while in rage, which was taken on face value and committed in deed.
anyway, i guess we’re better off as we are and i pray 2 god to give us happiness in each of our lives. in all fairness, neither deserves any less.
i am sorry to hear about this, if there is anything i can do to ease the pain let me know….
a year and a few months back, you said this to me. For a few months that followed, you made me laugh,ponder,you challenged me,suggested ways, you were there to listen….nothing short of a lifeline in a very bad time….it meant a lot…i never said thank u…i m saying now…today, i am saying the same to u….
someone standing on the debris of her own life cannot offer the other much…words of comfort fall short, theories and strategies sting, hope seems futile, comparisions seem petty, uncalled for….
Yet even a destitute like me yearns a magic wand to make it all right for you again (the way your hearts yearns n wants),for a miracle (for two good people belong together)……. and until that happens (if at all), i can offer you my words and prayers bro.
take care
tanzila: you’re welcome sweety! i hope you are doing alright now. its seems so long since we were in touch…
and your offer is just what i need right now, thanks!
what can i say….if i havent been informed, i swear that post cud have passed off as some novel extract. isnt it amazing how sorrow and pain brings out the writer in u? with all due respect, i regret hearing about it. and as tanzilla offered….me also hear to make u feel better with my unwavering stance on how life is a super bitch!
- if nothing more 
…things happen for a reason rmr…im still patiently waiting for the reason why such things happend to me. even tho ur a guy…welcome on board! the same boat me, jaded, nadi, sk, tanzilla are steering through
psyched: quite a long list you have there
but thanks for inviting me to the group 
p.s.
i have nothing against life or how this particular relationship turned out. I am a strong believer in a reason for everything, and well.. it’ll come sooner or later.
till then, i have the support of you guys! aur kya chayehai
p.p.s
thanks for the compliment, i’ve also been thinking that pain really does bring out the best in your writing abilities :p
Hey U v been the one who disappeared after ur engagment bhae..(waves her accusing phinger)..us babes have always been there….life mein thora balance rakhnee ka hae na mamooo..
Wasee usually, our super hot and super ranty bitchy ladies club doesnt extend membership to males…as we like to whack them every now and then….but we are making an excpetion in your case…as in the course of last 2 years, two of my bestest male friends went through messy divorces…And u knwo wot, it’s easy to take sides, call the other person evil, curse them and moveover, but if both the people/sides r equally good and yet v not been able to get along for some reason, then u can only pray for their individual peace and happiness….and for that divine scheme to reveal itself. Until then, our little dingy of hope braves the cruel n dark waters….
yeah tanzilla! tell him! the first honorary male member on board the “super hot and super ranty bitchy ladies club”
mansoor! its sumthing to be proud of u know!
girls! im honoured!!!! i think… :p
one thing im sure of, atleast 3 of you are hot
and you know what that means right? hot friends 
lolzzz!!
okay, now im being a typical guy!
but thanks for the support!
“atleast 3 of you are hot” —-> dude! that’s sacrilage!!! ok - so who are the 3 culprits?? bolo bolo tell tell! (now im being a typical female:P )
lolz :p that’s one secret i’ll never tell
hey, u okay?
sam: yea, quite okay, thanks! where u been and what you upto?